what!??!!

what!??! by chance I decided to check my myspace and saw some of the usual whatevs stuff, the strokes added some new vids, misleadingly making me think that their activity on their page equated new music. WRONG.

anyways, I saw a bulletin that Mario posted entitled Australia, weird thing, one he doesn't go online anymore and two he never posts anything...so I open it and it says he's going to Australia, he thanked people who were able to say bye and be with him before he left and that he might be back in a year or two...WHAT?!??!! no way, this is crazy! Can a person I have known for a good amount of time just pick up and move indefinitely to another country without evening having a chance for me to say bye? That sentence doesn't make sense, but I tend to now make sense when I'm writing nowadays, in English or in Spanish. ANYWAYS....seriously!!??! gone!?! And the weird part, I was sitting there listening to "Milk" by the Kings of Leon, KINGS OF LEON!!! Mario showed me that band, he gave me their cds and opened up that world to me, among other bands that I now love because of him. WHAT!!!?!? Gone!!!!???

Ah, it made me really sad. One summer I listened to the Kings of Leon nonstop and the songs have a haunting feeling to them sometimes, of hot summer nights in my room contemplating who knows what, probably being angsty.

Anyways, I don't believe in coincidences. It was weird of me to actually go on myspace and there I find that news while listening to kings. Something tells me that wasn't a hoax, why would anyone hoax like that....wow this is so weird. So I was sitting there thinking, geez I wished I could've been closer to that kid in the last years, but he's so hard to get a hold of, never with a cell phone, always moving between his mom's house, his dad's house and his grandma's house....geez even mom had more luck running into.

Oh well, I guess things like this happen. I just had this sad little feeling. Today was very contemplative. I did lots of walking through Defensa and the San Telmo feria, listening to music, being pulled over by that Brazilian vendor, him trying to convince me to buy one of his tie dye shirts I had eyed two weeks away, speaking to me Portuguese, I don't know how I understood him, walking around with Elizabeth, then her friend, then Kristina and Natasha...it was a gorgeous day so sunny with a light breeze, I didn't even have to wear a sweater at one point...but it was definitely weird, walking up and down that long street filled with so many people from ALL OVER, listening to different languages, seeing all the smiling faces, talking to the vendors, seeing little kids running around, I passed so many sundays there...Natasha and I would always laugh and say it was our Sunday mass...it's really the end, I won't be at that feria next weekend, there's no more feria, there's no more opportunity to buy a cookie from those goofy kids for a pesito, no more chances to laugh at the Maradona memorabilia, no more being pulled into a drum circle, but like I told Natasha, at least we lived it to its best and always had fun there.

Stupid green day song, "Time of your life", has been playing in my head. We chose it as our 8th grade grad song, but it's so suiting for the finale of things.

Anyways, I don't know what I was thinking or feeling. oh yeah I saw, Crossing Over, some new movie with Harrison Ford, with my homestay family, it was good, set in LA, I def saw some areas that made me homesick, Koreatown and its karaoke bars, I'm def going back with Brian this summer! But yeah it was about immigration and deportation and AH it was such a hard film, really made me want to cry a lot at some points, stupid immigration laws and the whole thing is ridiculous. I always think of Maritza and Joe, they're my age, I've grown up with them, nothing separating them from me, except the fact that they're not legal and that they can't go anywhere, they can't go to school, other than Cal State LA, Maritza just sits at home most of the time, she can't do anything else, she can't work. Once Joe gets done with Cal State LA, what's he gonna do?

Gah, it's so hard, the worst part is that both of them have younger siblings who are legal, and there's such a big disparity between them...it's so ridiculous to have to live so confined. Gah it makes me so sad.

Whatevs, the vacation is almost over, I guess it's time to come back to reality and look at things and examine things again. It was really nice to have a vacation and to get away and basically indulge myself for a bit. Pero la lucha sigue, there's lots to fight for and things to change and minds to open, so let's get to it, let's start working again...